I was getting really into reddit for the past weeks. I really found the site interesting (way way better than Facebook haha!). The humor that the users express on the site is very witty and intellectually pulled out. I already knew this is the kind of crowd that I would love to hang out with.
Just a few days ago, I read one of the most moving posts that I have encountered in the site. It was from a redditor named JohnJerryson.
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I have had some regrets with things that I was not able to do in the past. On a daily basis, I get frustrated when I don’t get to finish the tasks that I have set to complete for the day. My own self is my greatest enemy. Specifically, laziness and being demotivated kept me from doing things that were worth spending time on. I wasted countless hours doing senseless things. Then at the end of the day, I regret, and on the next day I repeat the routine.
I honestly think that I have a clinical depression of some kind. The irregular wave of emotions is one of the factors why sometimes I feel so heavy and hopeless. But I am continually working on it, so that it won’t eat me alive in the long run.
I have always had that fear of not being able to achieve the goals that I have set for myself. I have a lot. This blog itself speaks for the dreams that I want to fulfill. Looking at my posts, when was the last time that I actually posted something related to the goals that I have outlined at the start of this blog? I have a yearly bucketlist and there were items that are still left unchecked. My reasons? I have no time. I am still not ready. I don’t have the resources.Some of those goals I have had since childhood. I realized I have to act now, else it will never be a reality.
Also, recently I was beginning to have this habit of overworking. I am still young (I believe haha) and I am starting to have a monotonous routine of home-work-home. I already have the habit of staying at the office for almost 10 hours everyday, and yet I am still having the urge to take home some work during the weekday. and it is slowly creeping in over the weekend.
“If you’re reading this, and you have a whole life ahead of you, please. Don’t procrastinate. Don’t leave your dreams for later. Relish in your energy, your passions. Don’t stay on the internet with all your spare time (unless your passion needs it). Please, do something with your life while your young. DO NOT settle down at 20. DO NOT forget your friends, your family. Yourself.”
Reading JohnJerryson’s reddit post was a big slap to my face, and a sharp nudge to return to reality. Really, what would I get if I drown myself to work? The tasks needed to be done will never end anyway (because if it did, then be worried of your job security). The words of wisdom contained in the post is just priceless, because it comes from the point of view of someone who have walked far in life, achieved a lot of things, but still felt empty and incomplete. He regrets this, and advises people to avoid walking on the same track as he had been.
For the past years, I have slowly built a life outside work I have put up this blog, I am learning a lot of new skills (like driving, reading Hangul, playing the piano). I am slowly starting to appreciate the fun and thrill of travelling. I am trying to do things that I haven’t tried before (like going to the movies alone, or better yet, going to a rock concert alone… \m/) I am learning to grab opportunities that I know will never come my way again.
Next month will mark the silver year of my life. Learning is a continuous process. I am looking forward to what life has for me, and I am looking forward on what I can do with this life I have. 😀